When I first started learning about EFT, my big issue was that it looked stupid. I didn’t understand how it was doing what it was doing, but I learned rather quickly that it did work. Brad Yates covers some of your issues about your awkward feelings regarding how EFT ‘looks.’
Way too many people go through life believing that they are less than or not worthy of things in life. Consider this your first step in getting back on track to believing that you are worth and deserving. Brad Yates is one of my favorite YouTube EFT practioners. Have a wonderful day!