As much as I would like to say that I’ve got this gratitude and law of attraction thing working to my advantage, sadly this is not the case for me in this current time and space dynamic.
I’ve got way too much uncontrollable life stuff going on that makes me feel hopeless and super overwhelmed. Today is Thanksgiving and all I can do is hope that the holiday season passes fast without incident. This is the worst time of year for my family and things are always very stressed and on edge.
Now I KNOW that gratitude and appreciation are great catalysts for change, but when I am feeling so crappy and overwhelmed, finding things to be grateful for or appreciative of are pretty hard to come by.
The articles below may be of help to those out there in a similar boat as I am in. I need to find things to be appreciative of. I know they have to be there, but I need a perspective shift in order to see them. It feels imperative that I find a way to do this. I am just so tired of feeling this way. Hoping that things will change isn’t working. I have to change the way I am thinking in spite of what is going on around me.
It has been forever since I made a post here. Needless to say, discovering peace was not what I was doing and I was getting sucked into emotional places I didn’t want to go.
I’ve learned that every day has the possibility of pulling you off into the bushes and beating the crap out of you, if you let it. For quite a while there, that is were I miserably ended up on a daily basis.
So, since my last post, WAY back in July of last year I’ve lived(?) through:
– Tons of mental health issues including family coming off medications that seemed to be helping but didn’t realize it until they were gone.
– A child coming out as transgender and starting hormone replacement therapy (which ended up increasing mental health issues in other family members).
– Massive downsizing of our small business.
Well, that isn’t productive. I know I could go on and on listing out stuff but, ya know, what is/was was just an indication of my previous momentum. I lived in “I can’t do anything to make this situation better!” as my stress and fears were due to what was going on within my family.
It’s funny how the more stressed I was, less likely I would do what I needed to to feel better. My daily listening to Abraham-Hicks dropped to no listening. They were so not in my vibrational range and listening just pissed me off. I dropped into a very dark, “woe is me”, “my life sucks” self pity hole.
I didn’t realize it, but I spent so much of my days living in wait of the potential troubles happening. Needless to say, it wasn’t a very pleasant stretch of time for me. I felt tired, stressed and burned out all the time. I recognized that fact and I wanted to feel better with out asking anyone else to change. I wanted to find my level even though the seas would occasionally be rough. So, I decided to refocus on me, and what I wanted and needed.
I had been a pretty haphazard in meditating and never did it when it would have been most helpful. So, I added that to my habit tracker and said I would meditate every day. I’m not managing that goal yet, but am getting pretty close. I am taking time out of day to day happenings to focus on something that will make me feel better and more centered.
I also realized that with the stress of my life, came the pounds. I used to be an emotional eater. I’ve stopped that now. I am tracking what I eat and exercise just about every day. I found things that felt good doing (ddpyoga) and I am committed to making myself feel better from the inside out.
Oh, and I am back to listening to Abraham on a daily basis again. It feels good to feel better. I think this lifestyle is a keeper. 🙂
This post is mainly for my well being though I know there have to be many out there that could benefit from this information all in one place.
My life has be radically focused on family members with various mental health issues. I find myself being sucked into that land of “What Is”-itis way too often for my comfort. Searching for Abraham’s perspective on these types of issues has helped me. I know that I need to focus on how I want to feel, and stop “blaming” them for making me feel awful. I am choosing to take control of how I am feeling under all circumstances. There is a tremendous amount of relief in moving from the feeling of total helplessness to affect a change to a feeling of control in where I am choosing to focus. Feel free to add your favorite Abraham videos that talk about how to deal with mental illness in others and staying in the vortex.
Abraham Hicks ~ Depression, Bipolar Disorder And Suicide
Abraham Hicks ~ Helping a loved one with depression
Abraham Hicks – Mental illness and more
Abraham Hicks – To live with family member’s mental illness
Abraham Hicks Schizophrenia and other Mental Conditions