My journey to finding my connection.
In a household like mine, worry pretty much is a continual companion of mine. Worrying about all the things that I have no control over. This video from Tara Brach offers a way to help calm the worry.
I’m on day 33 of the Discovery Series series.
I’ve rediscovered my Headspace app and am loving it 🙂 Great way to get into the mindfulness meditation habit.
Peace, to me, means a place where I can feel the calm a midst the raging seas. The place within me that is filled with love without a drop of worry about anything or for anyone. A feeling that everything is exactly as it should be and that everything will be okay, even if I can’t see how that will happen.
I’ve been dabbling, inconsistently, with various ways to find my peace over several years. For me, it takes a lot of intentional practice to be in a steady state of peace. Once I reach a comfortable level of peace, I relax my practice and don’t notice the slow slide back down to dis-ease until it feels dramatically bad.
As I am getting older, my patience with this process is waning dramatically. I want peace in my life NOW and want it to stay. The one thing I have learned so far, on this journey, is that my peace has to come from within me. I can’t want outside circumstances to conform to my definition of what peace is. Well, I can want that, but trying to change what or how anyone else is, is a recipe for failure on my peace front. I need to allow my peace, no matter what is going on around me. It can be done. I’ve done it before. And I will do it again.
Meditation, exercise, eft and being outside in nature help me into to a peaceful place. I just need to get more into a habit of doing these things. The month of December, I am really going to make the effort with the meditation and the exercise. I tap (EFT) when I remember and it does make a pretty immediate difference in my level of agitation. I may try nature too, depending on how nice winter is here this year. Me and cold don’t get along very well. 🙂
This is all a journey. I know that it may take a while to cultivate a consistent peaceful mentality. I also know that life will challenge me on a regular basis. It is my ability to return to my peaceful loving understanding of the bigger picture that I am eagerly looking forward to.
Okay, so here’s my plan. I was re-listening to a workshop and came across a couple of tracks where Abraham is talking about how to access the guidance that your inner being can provide.
The quick answer is:
We would encourage any of you who are wanting to receive, who are really deliberately wanting to sit and receive – decide that you’re going to meditate every day for 15 minutes for 90 days.
I already meditate, though not consistently. I am going to do a 30 day meditation challenge. After the 30 day point, it should be a habit and should be easy to continue on for the next 30 and then hopefully the final 30 days.
I have many meditation tools at my disposal to make this happen. I could definitely use some ME time and the added bonus of eventually getting some clear guidance is something to eagerly look forward to.