Today I am grateful for the journey I am starting today. I have started the meditations that go with Mindfulness: An Eight-Week Plan for Finding Peace. I am starting out with Meditation 1 twice a day. The meditation only takes 8 minutes and, while my brain throws up all sorts of obstacles as to why I don’t have time to do it twice a day, I am making the commitment to follow through for the full 8 weeks.
So, today is day 1 of my journey to discovering my peace.
[This is entry 25 of 365 of Operation Gratitude]
It is amazing how it takes a while to recover from a downward spiral in emotions. I guess it is a matter of coming crashing to the bottom and having the momentum stop so you can take a breath and recover. I do this from time to time in regards to my husband’s illness. Depression is a difficult issue for all involved and perceptions of what is going on can be very different depending on where you are standing. Depression can also be a major challenge to relationships. We love each other but, at times, the going gets pretty tough.
I don’t get outwardly aggressive but rather retreat quite a bit into myself. This time was no different. When ever this happens, which isn’t too often – maybe 3 or 4 times a year, something good always comes from it. Open discussions between the two of us occur and new things tried to help ease the situation.
“Some changes look negative on the surface but you will soon realize that space is being created in your life for something new to emerge.”
― Eckhart Tolle
About a week ago, I came across a blog entry which was talking about mindfulness meditation and depression. I am the one who is into meditation and my husband is pretty resistant to it. The book sounded pretty interesting, so I sent him an instant message anyway, with the link to the book, and left it at that.
About a week later, he called me while he was waiting to pick up the kids from school, and told me about this guy who was on NPR talking about mindfulness meditation and depression. It sounded VERY familiar and was the same guy I had sent him the link about. Apparently, he had missed the link I had sent so didn’t know that I already knew about the gentleman he was referring to.
His discovery of this, on his own, opened the door for the conversation that would help me stop MY spiral down. We bought the kindle version of the book book and, while I have no control over if he chooses to investigate mindfulness more, I most certainly can. The book that I am currently reading is Mindfulness: An Eight-Week Plan for Finding Peace in a Frantic World. So far, it is well in line with the beliefs that I currently hold about life so I have high hopes for it helping me to discover my own peace in this crazy world.
I am grateful for the way things seem to work out for the best for me. I want to feel better and this will hopefully open the door to a pathway for me to achieve this.
[This is entry 24 of 365 of Operation Gratitude]
Sometimes, when you aren’t feeling the gratitude, trying to write about it just does not work at all. Yesterday was one of those days and, hence, the missing entry. I spent a lot of time focusing on all the stuff that just didn’t make me feel good. Law of attraction is good like that. Get some negative momentum built up and, viola, here’s some more of it.
Today was a bit better, but not even remotely where I would want it to be. Having said that, I did have some things to be grateful for.
It was an absolutely beautiful day out. The sky was cloudless and the prettiest color of blue. Hard to believe that I actually heard frogs singing from the lake. I thought it was a little early for that, but guess they know spring is coming.
I am so grateful that the school made quick work of the assembly this evening. We were able to get out of there without the huge traffic jam because we left as soon as all the microphone stuff was over. Over 800 people there and hundreds of cars. I am so grateful we got out of there when we did!
Tomorrow will be an even better day.
[This is entry 23 of 365 of Operation Gratitude]